Tales from outer turnip head...

Tales from outer turnip head...

Sunday, April 10, 2016

No clever title; just "Sledgehammer's" journey to hell and back...

Gaiman's Endless, Including Despair
During April last year I wrote three entries anchored in T.S. Eliot's poems, Preludes, The Wasteland, and The Hollow Men. Eliot's pre-conversion work, soaked in post WWI disillusionment, offered a filter for the sadness that I was experiencing over the loss of a student and of my wife's longest held friend (non-biological sibling). I was looking for moments of light in those days of sadness; I was trying to live in spite of a sneaky sorrow; I charged ahead living in an exercise of "be the change you want to see"; I kept that sorrow in an intellectual place, and had little clue as to how dark things would become as the year progressed. Despair comes unexpectedly and from places unanticipated. Desperation pushes us against the ropes of our own limitations, as we get pounded by emotions that feel like stabbing shadows of acrid smoke jabbing out of the darkness. There is always light, though; there is always the living...

So another April has come and I have been traveling through a lot of dark places for a while now. I have been watching HBO's The Pacific this Spring while I have been teaching 20th century conflict to my sophomores. The miniseries weaves several stories taken from memoirs about the South Pacific theater of World War II. One of the two primary texts used was written by Eugene Sledge:
With the Old Breed: At Peleliu and Okinawa is a World War II memoir by Eugene Sledge, a United States Marine. Since its first publication in 1981, With the Old Breed has been recognized as one of the best first-hand accounts of combat in the Pacific during World War II. The memoir is based on notes Sledge kept tucked away in a pocket-sized Bible he carried with him during battles. (Wikipedia)
Eugene Sledge
Joe Mazello
Eugene Sledge's character in the miniseries—played by Joe Mazello—struggles with a steady slip from a space of firm, nonjudgmental, principal to one of survival and, at times, near animal behavior.

Eliot's story-through-poetry is an assent from his demon spaces to a more well lit place of faith. Sledge's story told through HBO's lens is a descent to hell and a journey through the most terrible places soldiers can travel. (It does end well despite the terrible places Eugene had to go before returning to his core character.)

I wish to reproduce the synopsis from Wikipedia for context as it suscintly illuminates some of what I have been thinking about:
Sledge's memoir gives a firsthand and unapologetically honest perspective on the Pacific Theater of World War II. His memoir is a front-line account of infantry combat in the Pacific War. It brings the reader into the island hopping, the jungle heat and rain, the filth and malaise, the fear of potential "banzai attacks", and the hopelessness and loss of humanity that so uniquely characterized the campaign in the Pacific. Sledge wrote starkly of the brutality displayed by Japanese (and to a much lesser extent, American) soldiers during the battles, and of the hatred that both sides harbored for each other. In Sledge's words, "This was a brutish, primitive hatred, as characteristic of the horror of war in the Pacific as the palm trees and the islands."

Sledge describes one instance in which he and a comrade came across the mutilated bodies of three Marines, butchered and with severed genitals stuffed into their mouths. He also describes the behavior of some Marines towards dead Japanese, including the removal of gold teeth from Japanese corpses (and, in one case, a severely wounded but still living Japanese soldier), as well as other macabre trophy-taking. He details the process and mechanisms that slowly strip away a soldier's humanity and compassion, making the thought process accessible to those who have never served in combat.

Sledge describes in detail the sheer physical struggle of living in a combat zone and the debilitating effects of constant fear, fatigue, and filth. "Fear and filth went hand-in-hand," he wrote. "It has always puzzled me that this important factor in our daily lives has received so little attention from historians and is often omitted from otherwise excellent personal memoirs by infantrymen." Marines had trouble staying dry, finding time to eat their rations, practicing basic field sanitation (it was impossible to dig latrines or catholes in the coral rock on Peleliu), and simply moving around on the pulverized coral of Peleliu and in the mud of Okinawa.
Eugene Sledge "Sledgehammer" is depicted as a quiet, thoughtful, faithful, moral, kind, young man eager to be involved in the war. He reads his bible, doesn't smoke, offers no criticism of those around him and strives hard to learn his difficult job as a mortar man. As the miniseries progresses with depictions of island hopping, brutal fighting, and hellish conditions, we see our marines pushed to the limits of barbaric behavior and near insanity. Sledge is not spared. We watch a sweet innocent young man try to retain his humanity despite baby step after baby step toward the shell-shocked, haunted, soldier-type that surrounded him. It is quite depressing to watch. It is hard to see these men, clinging to humanity, as heroes; they seem more like victims; the combat they are engaged in feels purposeless, despite what I know as a history teacher of the import of their sacrifice and work. Their sacrifice overwhelms me; their suffering devastates me...

And the war ends. I have not yet finished the miniseries for the second time, but I have seen it once. I know the story. The war ends. The "good guys" win... with terrible cost. And the Greatest Generation is immortalized and memorialized and they go back to life... back to life! That's the message here. There is life after tragedy for those who live. There is Spring for those who endure the Winter. There is a "next"...

Eugene returned from the war scarred. He was unable to hunt birds and deer, as he had before serving. He had flashbacks of the slaughter in the coral islands of the south pacific; he wrote how hard it was to return to civilian life.

He got married. His wife urged him to put his ideas on paper... and he studied science. He earned his doctorate, became a professor and was loved by his students. He lived to see the 21st century. He lived and set an example so that those of us who know sadness can see that there is a way back, even from hell...

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Don't worry about a thing...



I'm going to keep this simple and sweet for an Easter Sunday that I am spending quality time with my entire direct family. Spring has had a week to establish itself and I see little bits of evidence everywhere. I am still looking for three little birds by my doorstep, but I hear them, out in the trees... They're close!

"Don't worry about a thing
'Cause every little thing gonna be alright
Singing' "Don't worry about a thing
'Cause every little thing gonna be alright!"

Rise up this mornin'
Smiled with the risin' sun
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true
Saying', ("This is my message to you")

Singing' "Don't worry 'bout a thing
'Cause every little thing gonna be alright."
Singing' "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing
'Cause every little thing gonna be alright!"

Rise up this mornin'
Smiled with the risin' sun
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true
Sayin', "This is my message to you"

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be alright. Don't worry!"
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing" I won't worry!
"'Cause every little thing gonna be alright."

Singin' "Don't worry about a thing
'Cause every little thing gonna be alright" I won't worry!
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing
Cause every little thing gonna be alright."
Singin' "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!



Sunday, March 20, 2016

The golden days are coming...

Sherwood Gardens, Baltimore, MD
Nature’s first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold: It is the first day of spring. Weather lags the transition of the the equators's plane through the center of the sun (light and dark are in equal proportion for the day). But the spring has arrived and with it will come fairer days....

Her early leaf’s a flower; But only so an hour: We missed winter for the most part this year. Thanks El-Nino (did you read the sarcasm there?). Although I lament the lack of snow, and am sad that I didn't find an excuse to have a fire in dark on a cold night with flakes falling about me, I embrace the arrival of spring...

Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief: Bring on the tulips and crocuses, forsythia and dogwoods. Send the smell of oxygen and mud with the warm breezes of April mixed with the occasional smell of wood-burn as brush piles are disposed of. Dispatch the birds from the south, call out the sleeping things, and wake up the turf itself. Life!

Frost's poem, a favorite of mine, speaks to the fleetingness of "golden things." It is true that the golden sunset is sweet and fleeting, that the blooming flower is short with its reproductive glory, that the joyous moments of our lives quickly fade to normalcy... But each of these things leave a residue, a memory, a tangible feeling that is savored after the moment has passed. The days grow longer, the air more sweet, the light more bright, the time to breathe easier. So although nothing gold can stay, if we wait a little longer, another moment arrives, each one in its turn potentially golden. Spring is such a great time for golden moments, full of reminders of life, to break up the constant normalcy of change: life and death, hope and loss, etc. etc. etc...
Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

--Robert Frost
So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay: Spring is so brief in New England, not like the mid-atlantic where I grew up. There, the Dogwoods, and all the early flowers, along with the Redbud and Cherries bloomed nearly simultaneously early in April and the weather remained fair all the way to June. August could be brutal mind you, but spring is glorious there, an Eden of sorts. Baseball, flowers, birthdays, grass, and the sweet sweet air of 70 degree days. Regardless of the duration, we are in for the best of days, we don't need to hold our breath, or wring our hands with worry; the balance of light and darkness has tipped in favor (for a while) of warmth and light, and we can look forward to the next golden things arriving any moment now...
Today

If ever there were a spring day so perfect,
so uplifted by a warm intermittent breeze

that it made you want to throw
open all the windows in the house

and unlatch the door to the canary's cage,
indeed, rip the little door from its jamb,

a day when the cool brick paths
and the garden bursting with peonies
seemed so etched in sunlight
that you felt like taking

a hammer to the glass paperweight
on the living room end table,

releasing the inhabitants
from their snow-covered cottage

so they could walk out,
holding hands and squinting

into this larger dome of blue and white,
well, today is just that kind of day.

--Billy Collins

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Helmet for My Pillow...



So I have decided to rewatch The Pacific, HBO's WWII miniseries. I have watched HBO's WWII: European Theater mini series Band of Brothers several times and believe it to be the best 10 hours of television ever produced. I was less impressed with The Pacific the first time I watched it, and believe it deserves a second viewing.

Band of Brothers: What I realize is that the story of the 101st Airborne, Easy Company is a linear story of heroes triumphing over the Germans in WWII. It is a likable story with Dick Winters as the center point. There are a myriad of reasons Band of Brothers deserves the accolade of "Best," but my comments here are about The Pacific.

I am two episodes in and already feel I misjudged The Pacific my first time around. The tragedy of war is overwhelming in this series, but in addition, the chaos and non-linearity that seems to define the marines experience in the South Pacific is even more unsettling. I find it a harder story to "like," due to this unsettling chaotic violence, but am finding myself deeply moved by the experiences I am viewing.

One of the stories woven into the narrative is that of writer and Private First Class, Robert Leckie. Here are some of his words:
Here was cacophony; here was dissonance; here was wildness; here was the absence of rhythm, the loss of limit, for everyone fires what, when and where he chooses; here was booming, sounding, shrieking, wailing, hissing, crashing, shaking, gibbering noise.  Here was hell.

More to come...